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Sicko

On Sunday I went to the Sundance Cinema with my roommate and saw Sicko. I thought it was fairly good, not as good as Bowling for Columbine but much better than Roger & Me, and slightly better than Fahrenheit 9/11.

What I liked about it was that instead of doing mostly shock stuff like his previous movies (it was still there, but not as much), he concentrated on trying to make the audience want what he was selling. So he showed how great the health care systems were of Canada, England, France, and Cuba, while showing us how bad the system is here in the United States. At the end of the movie I honestly wanted to move to France but decided that England would have to do since I didn’t speak any French.

Being a disabled person who is currently on Medicare and will probably be entering privatized health care in a year or two, this movie hit me fairly hard.  I do worry about what is going to happen to me when I am no longer eligible for Medicare. While I had my previous job at Nike, I went all out to avoid getting health care, often spending frivolously because I have to keep my assets under $2,000 in order to be eligible for it. This means that unlike a normal American, I not only don’t save some of my earnings, I am basically prohibited from doing so. Going into the job market again this will not always be easily accomplished and eventually I will need to begin saving.

Which means getting a crappy insurance plan, but how am I supposed to get an insurance plan when I have a pre-existing condition? My mom had a difficult time finding health care for our family just because of me back in the 80s, it will be even harder in this day and age to get me health care for myself. Yet I more than the average person need it.

This is precisely why health care sucks in America and why the United States time and again proves to the world that capitalism isn’t the best of economic systems. Capitalism in truth is the last remaining vestige of the Hierarchical order that we tried to leave behind at one point. It is a system that promotes the poor being left in the dust, and a system that also promotes the rich getting richer while the poor gets poorer, and it makes it more difficult to swap classes. It keeps the tiered system of the old days in check, while giving us a false sense of freedom and ability to move up to a new class. It can happen to some degree but rarely. In the meantime, the poor are treated like crap. We’d be much better off in a socialistic democracy where everyones life needs are taken care of equally (from good working conditions, to health care, police, fire, all the way to education) and the corporate need takes a back seat to the individual. It is idealistic sure, but Micheal Moore’s movie shows us that it is possible, because it works to a large extent elsewhere.

In trouble

This week I seemed to turn a corner in my medication, and it isn’t a good one. I have yet to go to class this week is the simple way to say that things are going wrong… the more complicated part of it is that I don’t understand why I haven’t gone to class this week.

So on Monday the main issue I was having was that I was extremely antisocial. I didn’t think that was a huge deal, I’d be back in class the next day so I just decided to take the day off and recover from my shot. After all Mondays are usually my hardest days and therefore I should have been raring to go on Tuesday.

Tuesday, I started to really hit the side effects of my medicine. I felt totally sick to my stomach, I was achey and I had diarhea. In addition to this, I was also still feeling extremely anti-social, but now it wasn’t really the reason I wasn’t going to class. I was literally worried that I’d puke or poop in class. This carried over to Wednesday as well where all the classes I actually want to go to, I missed.

Today is totally different. While my stomach is still aching, it isn’t as bad as it has been the last two days. I actually drove to campus and all, I missed my turn to where I park, I started to do a loop around the block to go back, but I just went back home instead, crying the entire way.

I really don’t know what is up, but it seems that I’ve had the gambit of symptoms. Tiredness (yeah I’ve had that all week too), acheyness, nasea, diarhea, depression, and loss of apetite. Even think that I’ve even been a tad cranky during the time and snappin at people for no reason.

It’s too bad, up until this point I had thought I had lucked out with the side-effects.

Random Stuff

Well this week’s Hep C injection didn’t go anywhere near as disasterous as last week’s. This week the injection site didn’t bruise at all, compared with last week’s gameboy size bruise, I’m quite pleased. I didn’t have hot or cold flashes, I felt a little achey but no where near as bad as last week. And I was still a little drowsy and didn’t feel like goin out much. I think taking the medication a couple hours earlier in the night helped a lot, I think I’m going to bring it back another hour especially with school coming up. My hope is that the very worst of it will be gone by the time class starts, I doubt that’ll happen but anything I can do to help is worth my while.

I went to target last night to get some stuff and while I was there I decided to check out Wii stuff. Still no controllers or nunchuckus, but they still had ample supply of games. While I was lookin in the area I decided to go over to the PS3 section because I had heard that PS3 were beginning to be readily available. Sure enough, Target had 2 of the expensive, and 1 of the cheaper PS3s on display (who knows if there were more in the back, it didn’t seem like their shelf could hold much more than that). I can’t imagine Sony thinking the PS3 has been a success. They have sold almost a quarter of what Wii has sold in less time. Meanwhile, people are still waiting in line for the Wii and the PS3 is gathering dust on the shelf. If this continues, Sony is going to have to enter into a price war and start slashing the price of the console like there is no tomorrow. This will become even more dire if rumors are true and Microsoft puts out a 120GB version of the 360 at the same price the premium currently sits at as the main advantage the PS3 has had thus far is that it has a bigger hard drive, which this will totally nullify.

Sony is in trouble.

And honestly I don’t even think Microsoft is in a great place looking at continuing crappy numbers in Japan. In a little more than a year Microsoft has sold more than 10 million units, which is great for them, however I’d be shocked if they sold much more than 1 million in Japan which is dismal. After just 2 and a half months, Nintendo has almost sold 4 million units, and gaining fast. Nintendo’s only limitation is getting the units out and they are putting them out faster than Sony or Microsoft could do combined. If Nintendo continues to have these strong sales, Nintendo should easily eclipse Microsoft as console leader by the end of the year. This is especially true when you consider the software that Nintendo is likely to put out this year. I expect Super Smash Bros., Brain Training, Mario, and Metroid. These franchises I think are really going to push the numbers of Nintendo quite a bit, they are 4 of Nintendo’s strongest franchises, their 5th already being out on the Wii with Zelda, and their 6th never has worked on a console. Although I totally expect the Pokemon fighting game for Pearl/Diamond this year as well. (I’ve heard that it is the best version to date of the fighting game but that game hasn’t traditionally done will in the US, even when the Pokemon franchise was at its height.)

The day after

I went to bed at 7:30 last night so it was no surprise that today I woke up at 6:00. I was so exhausted last night that I just couldn’t help but go to bed that early. It didn’t help that I was getting bored of EQ2 at the time and there wasn’t anything worth watching on TV last night. Unfortunately it is only 8am right now and I am already starting to feel like a nap. One of the side effects of my new medication is drowsiness so that isn’t entirely surprising. I did sleep fairly well last night though I did toss and turn alot after about midnight for some reason. I don’t feel nearly as bad today as I felt yesterday though so I think the extra sleep did me good. I think for my next injection that I will try to do it an hour or two earlier so that I can try to get to bed earlier and thus sleep better.

Since this has turned out to be a rather short post, I thought I’d take the opportunity to give an update on the outcome of the letter. To which there is no update really. I haven’t heard from her as of yet. It is possible that given that I sent it during the holidays that it took longer for her to get, or her parents needed to send it to her because she may live somewhere else. But I think after 3 weeks it is pretty safe to say that she likely isn’t answering right away which doesn’t bode well for any hopes I might have had. I still may recieve a letter at some point, but I doubt it’ll say anything that would make me happy at this point. I am suspecting though that she won’t reply at all, even to give me an update on her life. Oh well. Not like I was expecting her to show up on my doorstep leaping into my arms anyway.

New medication

Last night I began taking my Hepatitis C medicitation. It is aweful stuff, the meds alone make the disease not worth getting. You get this little sirenge which with a little tiny needle that you stick in your stomach (not the organ, just the part of your body). You then push the liquid medication into your fat/muscle and then take out the needle. The medication left a fairly decent sized bruise on my stomach, maybe a little larger than a quarter, but it stung like nothing else all night. I barely got any sleep last night because of it. Then at like 3am I wake up freezing my ass off. I got up and turned the heat up and got a second, then third blanket… all the while my teeth are chattering. I know this was a side effect because my roommate woke up and said it was hot meanwhile I’m bundled under 3 blankets trying to get warm. That has gone down a bit now, but in general I still feel quite nousious.

I am also taking 3 pills two times a day to go with it, though I think the most those are doin to me is dry mouth and a head ache. The real side effects come from the injection, luckily I only have to take it once a week but I hope that I get more used to it when school starts because as is I would be skipping every Monday.

Tuesdays

Tuesdays are inherintly long days for me. My first class begins at 8:50-9:40am, my second class is from 11am-12:15pm, and my last class is from 4:35-7:05pm. I also go to the hospital to get medication between my second and third classes, and Tuesdays being busy for them as well I often get stuck at the Hospital for a good two hours.

So essentially I have very little time in the day to do anything very large. Today for instance, in between my first two classes I had a small amount of time which I used to meet with classmates for an oral exam that we have on Friday. I use the time in the waiting room at the hospital for reading homework to help keep me caught up. And I use the time between the Hospital and my third class as relaxation, sometimes study if I really need to. Today it was done for 45 minutes of relaxation playing SSX3 on the gamecube. That essentially leaves the hour and a half after class before I go to bed for study and homework. I have a short one page paper to due tomorrow and a worksheet. I am going to skip the worksheet though she will likely collect it, gonna see what I can copy before class… the 1 sheet paper I may skip till my study period between classes tomorrow because I just don’t feel like it tonight and it requires reading the Divine Comedy which I’m just not in the mood for.

Oh and did I mention I rarely eat breakfast OR lunch, and in fact don’t get to really eat until I get home at 7:30pm. I ate a banana before I went to school this morning only because I had a test and I feel that I need to do more than watch TV to wake up my brain so I eat as a way to jumpstart it. I also had a cookie and chocolate milk in the waiting room at the Hospital, and i also was able to eat some broccoli, carrots, and pretzels in my last class since people bring snacks for everyone. It is this type of day that I really hope helps my diet out!

More sticks

Decided not to go yesterday to get my daily factor because, well I’m not sure if I really needed to go and I am getting tired of getting stuck. My arms couldn’t really take more. So I skipped yesterday in favor of going today.

And yes, the nurse I had on Friday was my nurse again today. I saw her when i checked in sitting at the nurse’s station but the check-in lady was on the phone so I couldn’t request her or anything. Plus they were really busy so I didn’t know if I could even request on such a day anyway. So I went in the waiting area and it didn’t take long for her to come out and call another patient. She waved and me and smiled and I smiled back at her and waved back. I didn’t linger too long so hopefully that was a good move. I then could do nothing but hope that they got to choose who got me and that she would get me again today. Sure enough in half hour to 45 minutes she came out and called me. YAY.I had a lot of fun with her, found out more about her. Didn’t ask her out… felt self-concious about it. Unlike Friday when I was essentially alone with her, this time there were patients and nurses EVERYWHERE. I kept wondering if others could hear and I just couldn’t ask her for her number. I told her I’d probably be back on Friday so hopefully I can get her yet again.

I do need to hurry and ask her though. I don’t think I can go to her for too long. I don’t like getting poked in my forearms and she doesn’t seem to be able to get my forearms anyway (so far she is 0/3), and she doesn’t like going in my anicubicle (elbow pit) which are my better vains. Eventually I am going to have to switch nurses out of necessity, so I am going to have to try to get her number before that happens. I can put up with the the pokes for awhile, but it would be best if I didn’t have to. On the other side of things, if I do get to choose her for Friday and she knows I asked for her, it will be obvious that I like her because there is no other reason that I would ask for her, after all she can’t hit me and she doesn’t like to go in the vains that I prefer (and they are very aware of where I prefer to go). So maybe it won’t be too much of a surprise for her if I asked her.